This year has been all about what other people want, how can I help other people, and for once I just want something for me. And I know that sounds extremely selfish but at what point do I start thinking about myself. I once heard the quote “You can’t pour from an empty cup.” After looking at that I realised that my cup is empty and broken. I have put myself together with tape and glue and I stand and hold my cup up when it rains because I look after myself because other people might just break me. It’s the fear of other people hurting me or being hurt that holds me back from doing what I want even if it’s what's best for me. But why does it seem like I can find ways to help other people but never myself. I’ll always be okay because there are many people that their cup is also broken but their cup might be missing parts or they aren’t able to hold it together with tape and glue anymore. I have been able to hold myself together with tape and glue and for that I consider myself lucky. Yes I know i'm a mess. You don’t have to tell me that twice because oh honey do I know.
So here I am struggling with reality as most people are but I’m facing this internal battle of doing what's best for me or making sure everyone else is okay first. Even though I haven’t quite figured it out myself go do something for yourself. Go get a pedicure, cup of coffee, binge netflix, or simply do whatever makes your heart happy. Don't let your cup become empty.